I completely understand your pain. When I lost my sister (she was a doggy btws) I was in complete and utter shock and the sadness/pain never goes away. However, as time goes by, the scar lessons in terms of intensity and while it will always remains, it is a constant reminder of the amazing times I also had with my sister who i will never forget. I hope that your scar will also heal quickly and that you feel better soon! She looks like she lived an absolutely amazing life!!